Poetry : Lost and Found

It’s been a while, I know. Well, with nothing really happening in my life; the whole point of coming out here and scribbling something has become a little less appealing to me these days. Or you could just say that I’ve been lazy. Either works fine with me.

So, life has been pretty much the same for the past one and a half years now. Boring, Dull, whatever words you can find to describe it doesn’t do justice to the feeling. Any ways, the whole reason I’ve decided to come out here is because, today I switched on my old phone and found a piece of poetry I’ve written about 3 years ago. I don’t know if I had posted it here already, but I just found it too good to be left alone in the dusty corners of my old phone’s memory. I know, I’m boasting about my own skills here, but the person who wrote it 3 years ago and the person who is struggling to write something nowadays have a lot less in common; that much I can assure you. All these years, I’ve been trying to rediscover that spark I’ve lost a long time ago. I feel that I need a creative push more than anything at the moment. Well, who knows what might be of help. So here it goes. Hopefully, you’ll find this good too.

” I move with limped legs,

and a broken heart

waiting for the final whistle to blow..

the end of a lost game.

Walk away with little left of what 

can be called as pride. 

Yesterdays starting to become 

long lost memories, 

Hard earned virtues of the past turning into 

nothing but the trash of today. 

I gasp for breath in this alien world..

few things that kept me alive becoming pricey 

each passing day..

I’m left with no choice but to live

till the ultimate escape..

to swim a few worthless miles 

before drowning deep.

to make some noise before 

the eternal silence. 

I lie here waiting to be dead..” 

This  was perhaps the time when my first infatuation kinda died on itself. That’s why the whole macabre kinda mood to it. Any ways, I’ve never had such an inspiration to scribble something like this in a long time, I figured I might just post something I’ve written a long time ago. Looking back, all of it seems so silly. But it definitely fuelled my creative pursuits and that in itself is a positive thing I guess. As someone once said, adversity brings the best out of us in ways we can never imagine( if no body had said it before, let’s just say, I said it now! 😀  ).

Let there be peace! 

Culmination of a dull year; Hopes and lots more..

I’ve been lazy over the past few months. Needless to say, my visits here have been few and far between. Actually, life itself has been kinda like this for me in the past few months. Well, “few months” is rather a generalization of the past year I guess, for I’ve been like this for the past one and half year. So where were we then ?!

Ah, yes! It’s New Year time! Another year comes to an end and we’re getting ready to face 2015! We have to make that mental adjustment while counting our ages and writing date on letters! But I’m sure we’ll get used to it; like we’ve gotten used to in the past!

As for me, New Years’ eve is the culmination of a rather forgettable year in my life. Reasons being the obvious ones. The same old reasons I have spent many a time typing down here yet they seem to not let me go any time soon. As my few readers would be knowing, I had completed my college back in mid 2013 and since then there has been an ever persistent monotony in my life. I had a hell of a lot of backpapers( yea, way more than your usual) and I have been trying to clear them off so that I could get my graduation; for the past one and half years. 2014 was nothing but  the two semester exams; one at the start of the year and one towards the end of it. The in-between stuff largely remains hazy. Maybe ‘cos there was hardly anything worthwhile to remember!

It’s been truly dull. There is only so much time a guy can sit simply in his house without going nuts. Somehow, I have survived the walk down the crazy path. I’m now like an inactive system. A lot of my resources I fear, have become rusted in the past one and half years. Looking back, what did I do in the past year?! I’m just amazed at how one can spent a year of his life without doing anything worthwhile!! Actually, it used to shock me for a while, it used to have the better of me at times, but now; everything seems meaningless. I’m half-dead; I’m more like a zombie these days.

College seems like a distant memory. Perhaps because it was the last meaningful thing I did in my life. Everything else seems not worth remembering since then. Yea, I had a few trips with friends and did have a hell of a time while it lasted. But there are things that you’d wanna look back and take as achievements in your life. It’s been my curse, that I haven’t had many such occasions in the past few years.

I did hope that at the cusp of 2013, the new year ahead would be a bit different than the previous one. Sadly, it turned out to be the worst in my life. But I’m not losing hope. I know for a fact that there are things in life you are meant to know and experience and wisdom might just come to you by simply sitting idle, who knows. I’ve certainly changed, that much I can assure. Everything isn’t enjoyable these days because deep down you have that feeling that tells me that I should be out there in the world doing something meaningful to me and people around me. Instead, I have been forced to lay low thanks to the academic blunders I had in college. I guess, having fun comes at a cost. Anyways, complaining isn’t really the way to end things. Hope. Only hope prevails in me right now.

I certainly hope things do change for the better in 2015. Future looks more bleak nowadays than it used to in my childhood but I’m not ready to give up without a fight. Everything will be alright, I hope.And as Andy Dufresne has said, Hope is a good thing. 🙂

A friend in need …

(This post goes out to one of my bestest friends! In fact, I’m writing this after a lot of compulsion from her part but nevertheless I’ve been thinking of writing such a post for a long long time now! 😀 Well, count this as my autograph which I couldn’t write back then! ) 

About a year ago I had just completed my course and had been just out from my college. Not to mention, I was clueless as ever. I really had a tough time coping up with the life after college; mostly because of having to adjust to the changes that has happened in my friends’ lives’ more than mine(my life remained almost the same then and even now 😦 ) . Well, I’m not going into the details for I have bored you enough with my pointless posts over the last several months. The reason i’m posting this is because I would like to acknowledge a special someone who has been more close to me in the past one year than any one else. To actually think of it now, we were never this close when we used to study together(or go to class together 😛 ) !! Well, better late than never, right?! 😀

There’s a lot I want to say right now, but since I would like to keep her anonymity intact, I’m forced to limit my words here. I’m sorry yaar, you’d have to bare with me here! Simply putting it; she’s just an amazing person! Incredibly stupid at times and more knowledgeable than my imagination could ever fathom. In fact, I’ve never met a person who has ever came so close to being my carbon copy that I couldn’t believe  myself over the things we have in common! She’s like my female alter ego and I’m not kidding when I’m saying this!

Ok enough praise here, now let’s head back to the reality 😛 ! As i was saying, she was really my friend in need. I know it for sure that we both needed a friend around a year ago when things were headed for major changes in our lives’. I just thank that we were there for each other back then. Forgive me if my words sound too cheesy here, I just can’t find the right words to describe here! Some day perhaps when I’ve made it big in life and when the opportunity comes for me to give an acknowledgement to all those people who have had an impact in my life, your’s would definitely figure in the top list;that I can promise of! ( i just wrote that to her I think, silly me! 😛 )

Over the years, I’ve written about several ordinary and some times out of the ordinary antics I’ve done in my life in this blog here. Well, If I was to write about her antics, I promise you it wouldn’t be half-boring as mine! The romantic adventures or rather the mis-adventures of my dear friend is bound to have several twists and turns like the PG-13 version of the Fifty Shades book! (I’m really sorry yaar! 😀 )  There are also several of her crazy dreams ( which of course I can’t write here ‘cos all of it would be a dead give-away to who she is 😀 ) which I really think aren’t that crazy when you get to know her. I,myself, has been a hopeless dreamer all my life and I have found a few people in my life who are just like that.

As always, on a closing note, the optimist in me wishes that she’ll be in my life forever but the skeptic in me(or rather my past experiences) has taught me not to force people to stay with you. I know that I’ll never forget you. I hope that you’ll always be there. Here’s a kudos to the good times we’ve shared and to the times ahead …this one’s for you! 😉 Keep Smiling babe! 🙂

P.S: I would have wanted to write more here, but you know may be some time later, as a book perhaps! Who knows! Your’s is a story in itself waiting to be told to the world! 

Testing Times..Changing Times…

Another year comes to an end. Somehow, I feel this year has come to an end too soon. Don’t know why, but may be time flies when we’re in the thick of things. Last year this time, I was a final year student of Comp. Science Engineering with a lot of the usual problems. A lot has changed in the past one year, and a lot has changed yet remained the same at core. I miss my college life these days. I’ve been on the nostalgic path since last year. Being the final year in our course, we tried to make it memorable in every way. And I’m glad that I’ve got a lot of memories to cherish a lifetime.

I miss my friends,my best friends. I miss my old life. Tension-free,Freedom,Do-whatever-you-want kinda lifestyle. Everything has become a thing of the past. Life has moved on. My best friends have found jobs and have moved on with their respective lives. They have become busy with their daily life. I haven’t changed a bit in the past year. I’m still writing my exams, carrying the baggage of arrears that I’ve earned in my 4 years of college life. My exams are almost over, I’ve just got about 3 more to go; finishing up this Jan 6. Responsibilities have piled on. The last time I messed up my academics, I found a safety net in my college. This time around, I’m left with no option but to clear my papers and settle down with a job.

Life as I know has changed, a lot.

Most people talk about turning points in life. I guess, this is the most important turning point (yet) in my life. There were guardians to show me my path all these years. Now I guess,it’s time for the little birdie to leave the nest and search for its own horizons.

Deep down I’m afraid. I’m scared to see my life being spent like the millions of working-class today. I’m scared of losing my friends in the thick of things. Life is going to keep us busy. I can foresee that. I’m scared to lose contact with my best friend,whom I’ve called almost everyday in the past 4 years,but may be not so regularly in the past 3 months. I’m scared to see my best friend getting married and moving away with her own life. I’m scared..

Nothing hurts more than love itself. Almost anyone who has come across this blog once, would know about my infatuation/crush I had on this girl for about 6 years or so. Back then, I wept for nothing. I cried because some girl didn’t love me. But now, I’m finding it hard to cry even after realizing that my best friend for four years is going to be busy with her life and I just can’t do anything about it but to hope that I’ll always be a part of her life.

Life is at its most testing phase when you are left with hope but no choices. Even tears are hard to come by for your comfort. I just wish I could break down and let it go.

But I guess, nothing is easy. Even the slightest of things. As always, I can only hope for the better.

I just hope that even though things change, the feelings remain the same. Emotions keep us together. Our relations remain the same even in these testing times. Though not bonded by blood, I hope that we’re all tied at our hearts by the bonds of friendship. I pray, that all those people I love remain with me throughout me the coming year and the years to follow. We may be miles away, but our deep down let nothing change. We had our best times; let the times to come be even better. I just hope …

5 Years! Life has sure changed…

Ah Well, can’t believe this! It’s been five years since I’ve started this blog and I have just now received an official Anniversary Wish from our dear fellows here at WordPress!

Well, not exactly a personal wish, but you know that sort of graphical wish you’d get upon achieving anything these days. I’m at my all time low and I just logged in here to burst out as I usually do. Don’t think that won’t be of any help now.

College over. Life stuck at a full-stop. Crawling to make a new breathing space I find my self in a shitty situation,as usual. Don’t worry, I’m not here to essay on poetry and my aesthetic sense of shitty-ness. I’m just a lost birdie seeking my way to a safe perch.

I miss the good old days. Less responsibilities, more fun. Problems were there, I’m not missing out on them. Back in my college days(Now this is going to take some time getting used to 😛 ), my usual worries were attendance lack-age in almost all my 8 semesters. Nowadays, all my friends, my best buddies have found their ways in life and have settled on to jobs or some other kind of thing. I’m the only one who sits in front of a computer and wastes my time fb’ying. Gymming has been a passion off-late. Well, what better way to let out your frustrations and anger!

And yes, its exam season this time! Once again, back to college. Dragging my ass over to that god-forsaken place( Well, it used to be nostalgic when I had my friends around,now its just a ghost house). When you think everything settling down finally,life takes you up and fucks you from all possible directions.

I miss my friends. My best friends(friend). I miss my life. The kind of optimist I am, I can only hope that things will get better from now on. Or else give me the strength to pass through thick and tide. God show me the way..

Debts

So, its that time of the year again. Exams..:(

Come this November, and officially my 9th semester exams begin. As you’d know there’s no 9th semester and I’ve finished my college this May and this is what I’d like to call “settling-the-debts”. 😦

I know, depression is the mood of the hour. Well, I can’t be super-excited about the fact that I still have about 27 papers/subjects to clear to get my degree. It sucks, really. I have thought about it in the past few years,but I never pictured myself falling into this much of a deep shit after finishing my course. Frankly, i never expected it go this bad, and that’s what really sucks!

Engineering is never really a tough task. Well, apart from the usual things like 50-60 papers, n amount of assignments,reviews, project etc etc.. it could never really be that hard,given you are an average student. Then what happened to me on the way. :O

Simple answer; I just enjoyed the best way I could in the past four years! Booze,grass and everything nice you could think of. That was my Sophomore year in college. After I realized I was getting off the track, it was all a downhill from then on. Shit just piled on.

Now that I have finished my college, I know it’s pointless to blabber about my failures in my blog. But I can’t admit to all these things to my parents or anyone(not while I’m sober at least 😀 ). I have to do it somewhere, right?! And I’m not Catholic so that I can go to Church one day and tell the priest that I’ve fucked my life up! Well, pleas bare with my few followers and friends here.. I’m just a clueless child trapped in a 22 year old body!

God, I wish things would fall into its place. Degree has become enough of a challenge for me now. Besides,after all this; I still have to find a job, a place to live may be. Life is getting pretty serious from now on. Serious in the sense, I can never shy away from responsibility for I have thrived on the same thing for my entire life. I just wish I get through all this stuff;bruised, I can take but definitely not dead.

Let there be peace.. \/

_Aj

College Life: The End

This would probably be my last post whilst I’m in college. So, here I am bidding adieu to my good old college!

4 Years it’s been!! Can you believe it?! 4 years have gone by so fast that I am needing a moment right now to catch my breath! Lot has happened over the past 4 years, I know. This place here, my blog, has been my constant emotional-dumping ground for the past 5 years now, I think. More than anybody, this blog has seen me hating my college, wanting to quit, breathing whilst drowning in problems, and finally enjoying the last few days of my college life. This blog has seen me realizing how petty my life issues were before I joined college and realizing how silly I was in making mistakes and choosing friends,before joining college. College has taught me a lot. It seems making friends was the best thing about college to me. Being the emotional person I am, I am right now overwhelmingly exhausted with an array of emotions. The final phase has given me a whole lot of great memories to cherish. Thanking god for that pleasant bit of an ending!

I always had my best friends beside me always. From my childhood to teens and into my youth. My best friends are still with me and will be there with me forever. College gave not only gave me friends but a best friend whom I could depend on my life with. College gave me my cutest and dearest best friend! Of all the things I’m grateful to my college, this would count to be best one among the lot! In troubled times, her friendship was the lonely solace I found in college. Moments that we shared together are becoming memories now. Memories that are beginning to haunt me. I really wish things could pause for a moment right now.You know, this moment,  this time, our present is never gonna be there again. All my friends have left our college and only a few like me are there(finishing off exams of course). This is the moment that really is gonna be a turning point in our lives. I mean, we might not see each other for years, who knows ! 😦  Life might take us miles apart, but our hearts remain tied with the bond of friendship ( My fav quote ! ).

We’re not gonna see each other as often as we used to in our class. That’s a hard truth we’re gonna have to deal with in the coming days of our life. I’m still hanging on to the good memories of college not wanting to move on. But someday, I have got to move on, I know. All I want now is that all my friends, my best friends, my best friend to be with me in life till my last breath. Friends are the best thing that has happened to me in my life. They are the best thing I have earned on my own. A few good friends of mine till the very end. I’m not wishing for anything lavish,ain’t I ?

I know, all of this is a bit cheesy. But admit it. The best moments in life are always a bit cheesy! Whether you like it or not. Deep down inside of every person there’s always a bleeding heart that wants to keep the dearest things close and the dearest persons closer.

Our college life might have come to an end. But this sure is a beginning of things. Hoping that all good things remain good and all great things grow even greater! Hoping that our love will always stay strong between us and our friendships will last forever… Hoping and praying as always… Let the best things happen to us. Farewell guys….. I owe my life to you.. .

College Tour: 4 Days of Life

The best days of my life! The past 4 days where simply the best. Well, that’s what you would expect me to write here. But the past 4 days definitely changed the way i saw my college. It was no longer a boring place. It was a place where I met total strangers and made them into my buddies over a span of 4 years. Think of all the possibilities 4 days could have in your life. I’m going mad just thinking about the whole idea of how things changed in my life,forever!

After 2 long years of struggles and protests, our dream of going for an Industrial Visit(IV)/Tour from our class became a reality on 21 Aug 2012,night. The journey begins. The journey that changed my life.

I was always a person who had that travel-spirit in me. I was always the free spirit who loved to roam around. This time, it was more special because it was going to be the first and the final tour in my 4 year long college life. Never again were we going to have another one in our lives,together. That’s what made it special, so close to heart!

I had my best friend. My buddies. Anyone and everyone from my class,i.e CSE Final Year. Everyone knew it was going to be an epic one. No body guessed that they would miss each other in a matter of few hours.

I still miss my best friend and my buddies. Sure, we had our moments. Those little sparks of magic that God showered upon us to cherish for the rest our lives. Who knows where life takes us after our courses are over. Who knows,whether we’ll all see each other at all?! It’s all those unsure questions that makes this juncture of life very much exciting and depressing at the same time. Being an emotional creature, I’m depressed. Over a lot of things. I usually spit my love failure bullshit all over this blog. But it took me 5 years, to revisit a place where I’ve been already with a new gang of friends to rediscover myself. Sure, I’ll always have my best buddies;my school buddies. But I’m surely going to miss my college friends for all the good memories we’ve had in the past 4 days. We ate,drank and lived together. Never ever are we gonna have such a chance in our lives. I’m weeping as I realize the dark truth. But making it a point to nail things down in my memory so that I could at least chew on it till life takes another turn.

No matter how much our lives changes in the future, I’m sure all of us will have our own stories,memories about this tour. This is by far the most emotional tour I’ve ever had in my life. Sure, I’ve gone on tours in 10th standard,12th standard; all crucial junctures of my life at that moment. But I’ve never felt so much emotion back then. I knew that I’d be seeing all my friends all the time and it hasn’t changed a bit since. Our friendships only grew as we grew older. But college. I still don’t know whether we’ll all see each after we’ve passed out from our college. Sure,I had my worries in this tour; but for all the good reasons you could imagine. Fun had a new meaning. Togetherness,Friendship,College Life. We understood what all these words meant in the past 4 days.

This tour will always be close to my heart… Thank you God,for having given me this opportunity. For my friends. For my best friend… .

( please bear with me for the language.I’ve been out of touch for so long that I’m not able to express things the way I wish I could. My mind draws pictures that I’m finding hard to describe.I’m running out of words..) 

The risky path..sins,friendship and survival.

There had been several close enough moments in my life where my entire life just hung on balance.These are, those times when you’re really at the mercy of someone else or the choices they make. My life just went through such a phase. Or call it a moment actually;that would be better I guess. It was one of those moments; as I just wrote, where your entire life seems to have paused before you. Halt. Unexpected,untimely and surely unprepared.This time around for me, it was my academics that made sure that such an “event” took place in my life. Lack of attendance in the classes meant dropping out of college at one stage and somehow miraculously I managed to whisk past the whole thing.It was as if walking the edge of a cliff, slipping your feet and somehow god throws you a magical rope that gives your life back to you! Not that I have any sort of previous experience doing this, but in a figurative sense it really felt that way.

Actually, I made that final walk down the isle to meet my death(college-life death; not literal death,again figurative) and was looking into the emptiness that lied ahead of me wondering what to do next. 20 minutes or so, I walked on fire. My life was burning apart and I could see the whole establishment changing around me. Everything I have so far done, every plan I had in my mind,everything; was waiting in the line to get fired. Those 20 minutes or so, life taught me lessons I’ve never learnt;ever. So far, I had things my way and there I stood begging for a chance at the mercy of others. Principles,ideologies,morals and every sort of idea I had about my life was being shattered. I saw my whole life falling apart in those 20 minutes.

Well may be not much of an exaggeration was required, but still I was searching in the darkness for an escape route. I actually though of some back-up plans for my life. But again, as I said; life just bounced back into my half-dead,almost corpse-like body. Without any sort of metaphorical decorations, the situation was that, I was asked to get out of my exam hall siting that I had low attendance in-order to appear for the exams. If I didn’t write the exams, I couldn’t continue with my batch and would have to later on join with my juniors after one year when they reach the semester currently I’m in; which I would never do in my life for life has been a bit comfy for me to accept dire failures. Pride was involved and so were emotions. I would miss my friends. My best friend. and I would never choose a college life without all of this. Had this happened, my 3 years of bitter experiences at college would have come to an end. I would have accepted defeat at the feet of my enemy and would have returned home as a loser. The only thing I had in my favor was my will power. My will to continue and pursue my degree. Pass out of that god forsaken place once and for all; with a degree in my hand. It would be like going to the devil’s belly and returning with the holy grail. Unimaginable, yet attainable. And so, I was presented with the last chance, all over again.

I came back, from death. Survived. Managed to escape the whole situation with some minor bruises and scars which would eventually heal with time. But it was an experience like none other nevertheless. In those times, my only relief was my best friend from college. She would probably be the best thing that happened to me after joining college.May be I was after all, chasing a Utopian dream all these years, that god saved me for better things in life. I don’t feel lost in love these days like I used to. There were days when I used to dream of my love till 3 in the morning and not go to college after losing my sleep! That’s a silly reason I know but still, that was me a few months back. But now i realize, I ought to enjoy what god gives me right now. The joy and fun of friendship and I’m lucky to have a friend like my best friend at college. Life is not bad all the time. She was my lifeline through these hard times. So were my parents. But emotions are different with different persons. Friendship was my refuge and savior.

THE  present situation. Well the usual. But a bit more sinful If I must admit. Thoughts have wandered all along that they have sucked up all the dirt and pollution on the way. Crude and un-cut. Lacking the old luster of innocence, my mind has become a junkyard of sinful thoughts. I reckon this fact. I realize I’m thinking too much and too much crap. But mind doesn’t listen. It does not settle down. It meanders to new horizons seeking new meanings in life. Everything written and established; challenged. To break the shackles and free myself. The words might sound good, but believe me, my thoughts ain’t. And I’m in no mood to share it here so that I’d have to regret it sometime later. I have become a conscious blogger in this regard.But nonetheless, my thoughts need some mechanism that would pure them head to toe. It’s like I’m standing but I can’t fix a point on which I should stand. I want to get my life straight, sorted out. But I’m not helping myself here.

Still in search of that perfection that has been missing in my life for ages. Still in search of that joy. The last time i laughed from the heart; out of innocence. Want to relive those moments again. ..Wanting to start afresh.

Stand-Still : Life hangin’ in a balance.. Chances becoming slim

Finally, the moment has arrived. As of now,my professional college life hangs in a balance. Future seems bleak. My chances of getting my degree has become very slim now. How? You may ask. Here goes the story. My 3 years. ..

3 years back, I joined this prestigious(so-called) institution called Nehru College(Jawaharlal Institute of Technology, to be precise) in pursuit of a Bachelor’s Degree in Engineering. And as time went by, all i got was a lot of back-papers and even more bad reputation. I was categorized to be among the worst students by my teachers(if you can call them teachers i.e). They just took on my life and turned it into a living hell. Humans with the viciousness of a vulture, breeding on my flesh and bones; quenching their thirst by sucking me off my blood. They preyed on me for the past 3 years. I survived.

Coming to the point. My synonyms just show the way I think about the majority of staff at JIT(my college). My actions have taken me to a point where it’s not clear whether there is a path ahead and there is a strong possibility that you may just have to walk back. It doesn’t matter 3 or 5 years you have walked down this road. If there is no path ahead, you must have to walk back. The hard truth hits me like a rock every time. Reality is harder.

AS always, I messed up my attendance percentage(the min. required percentage is 75%) and got a 57% attendance. I bunked classes and escaped from the tenacious grip of my teachers. Most of the times, I was afraid of getting killed by them and this lead to consistent bunking of classes. Whenever I came to the class, they attacked with a reason or the other. Reasons weren’t that hard to come by for them, actually. I was a good punching bag for them for I didn’t respond. My mouth has been glued for too long. It got used to being kept shut.

I still remember that day when I raised my voice against my class-teacher in my freshman year. To this point, I never regret my actions for she deserved what she got. A reminder that there are people smarter and greater than her. If she gets a complex by reckoning this “Fact” , I say FUCK OFF! XX

I really wish I get a chance to beat up these bastards. If there was one feeling greater than sex, I’d say it would be beating up your bosses(in this case, my ass-hole staff at JIT).

I’m not saying all of them are bad, but a lot of bad fishes in the pond may just as well make the good ones also bad. That’s the perpetual case in my college(especially my department).

 So  where do I stand now. I’m at the mercy of these a**-holes. They wan’t me to lick their feet for attendance percentage. They make me run miles inside the college for silly things. They make the best of their time; for the ball is in their court. I’ll do anything they say. I know, you might be wondering why would be it like that after babbling for the past few minutes. I’ve wasted good 3 years of my life here in this hell. My heart just doesn’t allow me to come out of there without a degree in my hand. So, I’ll do anything they say. Fix me, tape me up; do anything. Just make me appear for the exams. And if they make me drop out, I say i’m not going out without a fight.

Sounds fair doesn’t it?

The tables will change in due course of time, I know this for a fact. I’m waiting for my turn. Desperately waiting. ..