Another year comes to an end. Somehow, I feel this year has come to an end too soon. Don’t know why, but may be time flies when we’re in the thick of things. Last year this time, I was a final year student of Comp. Science Engineering with a lot of the usual problems. A lot has changed in the past one year, and a lot has changed yet remained the same at core. I miss my college life these days. I’ve been on the nostalgic path since last year. Being the final year in our course, we tried to make it memorable in every way. And I’m glad that I’ve got a lot of memories to cherish a lifetime.
I miss my friends,my best friends. I miss my old life. Tension-free,Freedom,Do-whatever-you-want kinda lifestyle. Everything has become a thing of the past. Life has moved on. My best friends have found jobs and have moved on with their respective lives. They have become busy with their daily life. I haven’t changed a bit in the past year. I’m still writing my exams, carrying the baggage of arrears that I’ve earned in my 4 years of college life. My exams are almost over, I’ve just got about 3 more to go; finishing up this Jan 6. Responsibilities have piled on. The last time I messed up my academics, I found a safety net in my college. This time around, I’m left with no option but to clear my papers and settle down with a job.
Life as I know has changed, a lot.
Most people talk about turning points in life. I guess, this is the most important turning point (yet) in my life. There were guardians to show me my path all these years. Now I guess,it’s time for the little birdie to leave the nest and search for its own horizons.
Deep down I’m afraid. I’m scared to see my life being spent like the millions of working-class today. I’m scared of losing my friends in the thick of things. Life is going to keep us busy. I can foresee that. I’m scared to lose contact with my best friend,whom I’ve called almost everyday in the past 4 years,but may be not so regularly in the past 3 months. I’m scared to see my best friend getting married and moving away with her own life. I’m scared..
Nothing hurts more than love itself. Almost anyone who has come across this blog once, would know about my infatuation/crush I had on this girl for about 6 years or so. Back then, I wept for nothing. I cried because some girl didn’t love me. But now, I’m finding it hard to cry even after realizing that my best friend for four years is going to be busy with her life and I just can’t do anything about it but to hope that I’ll always be a part of her life.
Life is at its most testing phase when you are left with hope but no choices. Even tears are hard to come by for your comfort. I just wish I could break down and let it go.
But I guess, nothing is easy. Even the slightest of things. As always, I can only hope for the better.
I just hope that even though things change, the feelings remain the same. Emotions keep us together. Our relations remain the same even in these testing times. Though not bonded by blood, I hope that we’re all tied at our hearts by the bonds of friendship. I pray, that all those people I love remain with me throughout me the coming year and the years to follow. We may be miles away, but our deep down let nothing change. We had our best times; let the times to come be even better. I just hope …
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