Thanima Irinjalakuda

YESTERDAY, i stayed back at my friends home after attending the biggest festival in our town, called Thanima. It is a two-yearly festival held in our municipal ground , where famous people from all over my state, kerala, come and conduct programs. Yesterday , we had “Ganamela” or Music Feasta by noted singers, Vineeth Sreenivasan,and Rimi Tomy. It was a grand feasta with an attendance of over 10000.

People from all over my town,come and attend the fest. It started at around 10pm and lasted for 2 hours till midnight. We had a chance to meet our seniors who are now in collage and had a great time there in the grounds. The songs were initially slow and from there on picked up speed and rythm. People danced all around, drunkards being as funny as ever.

Our usual things went on smoothly. Saw some girls we knew, went behind them, shook a leg at the beats,had a great dinner at the food fest …shortly putting it, had a great time! Thing is that , we’re having exams tomorrow and I hadn’t studied a thing for tomorrows exam.

So then, after the whole program, i decided to stay at my friend’s place for the night. Nothing much after that , besides sleeping after a heavy night of dancing,eating and flirting!

I just reached back home and the first thing I do, is sit back and enjoy the world of Internet, starting with Orkut,Flickr…. ! Things are just not going the right way I guess..!

Well, today also the festival continues,but I dont’ I’m going today. Exam tomorrow! So lets’ make that a fest shall we?!


Chilled Life..! Take a puff..!

You would have pretty much got what I meant from that title..! Yup.. a tryst with drinks again! This time the place is the same, Our school but occassion, a little different. We were celebrating one of our friends’ birthday. Actually, we planned the celebrations right after our exam! Also it was epiphany in our town. So things were pretty much in a quite mood. That meant that , getting some chilled beer wasn’t that much of a trouble!

So then, here goes my Mr.Nice image, and here comes the skull-cap wearing, gothic freek image! Today, We had a blast out there at our school. We bought the “things” we needed, waited there at the school discussing where to throw our party,and finally decided on doing things in school background.  The place was near our school toilet. We had to wait some time and that made the beer lose its chill. So then, when finally things started to flow in.. everything was just OK. I took almost a full bottle in a gulp! I am actually not a frequent drinker like some of my friends, only rarely do I get these things and doesn’t have a particular fascination towards these things. I am always of the opinion that things are to be experienced, I mean, only that way you could do stray away from it, if it’s bad for you.

Well, I was quite impressed at myself after seeing me taking down an entire bottle and finishing almost half of the second one. But mind it guys, beer can make you hungry! I was actually thirsty and hungry at the time and probably took it down because of that. Well, one of my friends didn’t like the un-cold beer and vomitted all over the place. I didn’t mind whether it was chilled or not, Coz most of the times, the beer I get to drink around in my house, isn’t usually chilled(my dad gives me sometimes!).

Well, if you think we stopped there, no dude, we are too bad to stop right there. One of my friends had bought a pack of cigarretes. Well, here it goes! A puff into youth! I took a puff, and I’m not hiding it. Now I clearly know its not good for me! So I’ll try my best to avoid it! So did many of my friends who were there. We were 9 guys out there. Most of them took a dig at both of these things. So the bottom line is, one and a  half bottle of Kingfisher strong beer, 1 puff ! Happy Birthday Dude!

Life just didn’t stop there! Well, all was in a slight kick after all of this(even though some might not admit this fact!) and to make things worse(or even more fun!), the perfect thing we needed was a scooter(Honda Activa to be precise!). Speed was the next thing on the menu. We went to town , devoured some meat and meals, went to church to see whether there was any girls after the epiphany(Girls..! hmm.. after a beer, a puff, what’s next ? ). Well, there wasn’t any.  SO then, the guys took the ride to my house then. Man, there goes the worst part of things. Everything went OK and the ride even though a risky, on-the-edge one, was just Ok ‘coz we made it safe to my home. But when we reached here, those guys just went mad, and wanted to have a race between the two scooters! And believe me when I say this .. these guys are the last persons on this planet who’ll slow down on seeing a vehicle in front of them! They went for the race, I preffered to stay back and enjoy the show.

I just knew something was gonna happen, all of this “kick” would be vanished in a moment when these fellows do something wrong. The problem is that , these guys are in a kick and daring to do anything. This just makes life altogether worse for the fellow passengers. They won’t mind the rules and would do anything to win the race. No respect for the pedestrians, other vehicles, true situation for a disaster. This is the part where I am truly against these guys. They might not have anything to worry, coz they’re away from home, and it’s my place. People around here are in good terms with my family that if there’s any need, the first people to come for help would be our neighbours rather than our family. So all of this mid-town madness would be directly reported to my mother. It’s not that any of them is afraid of my mother, I’m not afraid of her, I love her, and I respect her. The last thing I wanted to do now is give her some un-needed headache over something not so needed now in these last days of School life.

Well, just as I feared , these guys ran into trouble and put me in trouble too. One of them who was driving , forgot some essential rules in this racing spirit and overtook the other through the wrong side(left side in India). The brakes of the other’s vehicles was strong that the other lost control, skidded and ran into a fence, throwing back seat passenger into his front. Some bruises and scratches were the things that took these guys to gain consciousness after a brief period of complete craziness. All of this was made worse, given the situation that no body was at my home all this time, apart from our maid. So the neighbours had a lot to say about this to my mom when she returned after seeing the doctor, giving her a new headache!

The thing with most of teens is that, they just don’t know how to say STOP to their friends. I know that I just did a big mistake by giving them the freedom to do anything around in my house. This is gotta stop. Else I’m the one’s who’d run into trouble. I mean, I’m OK with drinking , puffing, even having a great f**k with some “taws” as long as it takes place in some other place rathen than my house. I think it’s time we all learned about some responsibilites.

I think this free ride is just gotta end!  Or else they should go with some rules in the first place.


Real life writing: the mess afterwards…

Queer title it might seem. But it just gives an insight of my current situation with blogs. Well, I almost write out a sketch of my life in my blog down here. People who know me, who hasn’t been in touch with me due to several reasons follow this blog to know the latest happenings in my school. It’s almost like a Santhinikethan News Journal, My blog!That’s really a sort of an appreciation for actually. I mean, you can write your entire life about things that you have faced in your life..but it can only become entertaining when others come to know about it and respond to it. So far , my blog had been on  a weaker note in that section. But , I still remain optimistic.

This is a note to all my viewers/readers, please give me comments, suggestions,and methods to improve my writing skills, the way I should be in my life , all in all how I could make my life better. You are most welcome..!

I just wrote it down because, lately i’ve come to know that , most of my friends from my 10th std, who have left the school, whom I still meet in our town occassionally, read my blog and get to know what’s happening in our school. But this really has a twist side too. Because, the story of my “Jumping friend” was only intended for fun purpose to show off the negative side of teenage suicides, to show what all a teen would miss if he/she tries to commit suicide and a hopeful attempt to open the eyes of such people who might accidently read my blog. But what really happens in our locality is that…stories get twisted when it passes on from mouth to mouth, ear to ear. The original version of a story is too hard to find these days.

So the case is like this, that story I wrote about him made several of my friend-readers feel different about him. Actually he’s a fun loving , young guy with all the vibrance of a teen. What I’ve made him through my blog is a love-failure guy or a Romeo who couldn’t get his Juliet! Well, that was CERTAINLY not my intention to picturize him as a loser or something.

INfact , I can’t blame my friends also.. my society sometimes amazes me with all these masala stuff thrown into our life. Stories circling around, rumours, gossips, all of these things get capital attention in my society or largely in general middle-class Indian society. It’s sort of fun when you’re not involved in it. But really a troubled water for anybody to fell into.

Well, i really hope my readers would understand what I’m saying right now. Sort of a mix situation right now….

When does failure gets accustomed?

Well, Yesterday, i hastily wrote down something I felt of my exams. That’s when my mom came up here into my room and scolded me for staying up so long int he night. Well,that payed off quiet well in my exam yesterday. ..!


I was sleepy in the first place. The second thing is an obvious one., I didn’t study anything. So there you go. Perfect mix for a disastrous recipe..!

so the story goes like this, I failed in yet another Chemistry exam! It seem’s this “failing” thing is become a routine over these days. Strangely but surely, I’ve accustomed myself to failures. It’s not that the whole world come’s crashing down when you fail in an exam these days. Queer it may sound , but that’s been my case lately.

May be it’s because I”m getting a nice company even in failure. Most of my friends, who are good at studies , too falter in front of one subject, most of them chose that subject to be Chemistry! So , things aren’t quite going in my way these days. ..especially when it comes to Chemistry.

Only thing that drives me forward nowadays is my  love. I just love her so much that I just wish that she was with me right now. Well, not entirely a Romeo-Juliet story, but still worth a shot! But , as I’ve written in my friends slambook , its not that I’m afraid, situations force me to hide my love! So you got an idea of where I stand.

Studies going bad, falling for a girl, Chemistry becoming an uphill task each passing day. … Life just couldn’t be any worse.  But then, god doesn’t make everything bad for you. These are just the tests that he throws at you so that when you overcome them, you could enjoy a happy life after that!  Well, all of this might seem an Utopian dream, …. I mean, what happens next?

That single question has been haunting me for quite sometime now. I pass 12th(hopefully!), join a collage, hang out with my buddies, chill, enjoy, then.. ?

I mean, fun is FUN…but when does it becomes boring? Duties are something that you always try to run away from , and when you are far from it, you try to come back…always.

Well, I started on something and took a diversion I guess. So then, my chemistry exam went pretty bad,infact it couldn’t get worse.
I slept most of the time, teacher’s were even complaining to my little sister about it! Well, I guess its the price you have to pray for a reputation in a small school like ours. 23 marks out of 70 has really become a magical figure these days. Even double figure mark has deserted me for quite  a while now.

But still i’m here, gazing at my life ahead. Gasping at times, at the sheer strangeness of it, but left amazed in the end.

I think I just got accustomed to something I should have never done in the first place. It’s not that I DID it.. it’s just that , i lost my track on the way, I was washed away in the flow, ……………..

Now I am moving with the flow. I realize it. I know it. But I can’t just swim upstream. I want to , I desperately want to. I am too lazy to do it.


Times when you think your life sucks..!

These days , I’m pretty much busy with my model exams. Yeah right, I wish I could say that, but as much as I’d love to pretend to be busy studying, I just can’t decieve my own conscience. I mean, i used to study good,and got decent grades, most of the times, excellent grades. But the last two years of my life had been really miserable when it comes to studying. Well then, here now I have model exams, i.e my pre-boards, exams before my board exam, my final exam, the greatest exam of my teenage life…!

Well so you pretty much got an idea of how much these models are important in my life. ..or in deciding my future. Well, that’s it..! But i’ve been nothing but a lazy git…! My mother, keeps on telling me to study but its rarely I touch my book these days.  Tomorow, i.e on 9th Jan 2009, I have my Chemistry exam.

Well, that’s nothing less than facing judgement day for me…! Chemistry , has been that one subject that had bothered me throughout this academic year. I just can’t get the heck of it! The twist came when my teacher changed and another replaced her. But that would be just a cozy reason I’d find for not studying. I’ve just lost interest in studies these days. I , above all persons know what teen stuff is really about. Well, I guess , I just couldn’t change things to betterment in my case too.

Life is going crazy these days. One of my model exams just finished a few days back. We had English as our first model exam. That went pretty good , thanks to my writing skills, and of course blogging. Everything helps when it comes to English . All you need is to write what you feel. Express your thoughts, give freedom to yourself as a writer. Well, that works for me , had been working for sometime now!

But in science and all, creativity is the last thing they’d want from you. That’s where I’d been falling back. I never study on a routine basis and always creates a panic situation in the last moments of an academic year. For long I’ve made it some how, but this year , it really looks tough. Not only that I have limited time to cover up all my portions, but only time I have now would be definitly wasted in front of my computer. uggh.. I just wish I could properly manage my time..!

Well, nothing more to share than a mind full of unsure thoughts of my academics, my love and everything else that you could come across a teenagers daily life.

Adios to all of my fellow bloggers. Hopefully I’d be back as a winner..! 😉

Anil ……..