Debts

So, its that time of the year again. Exams..:(

Come this November, and officially my 9th semester exams begin. As you’d know there’s no 9th semester and I’ve finished my college this May and this is what I’d like to call “settling-the-debts”. 😦

I know, depression is the mood of the hour. Well, I can’t be super-excited about the fact that I still have about 27 papers/subjects to clear to get my degree. It sucks, really. I have thought about it in the past few years,but I never pictured myself falling into this much of a deep shit after finishing my course. Frankly, i never expected it go this bad, and that’s what really sucks!

Engineering is never really a tough task. Well, apart from the usual things like 50-60 papers, n amount of assignments,reviews, project etc etc.. it could never really be that hard,given you are an average student. Then what happened to me on the way. :O

Simple answer; I just enjoyed the best way I could in the past four years! Booze,grass and everything nice you could think of. That was my Sophomore year in college. After I realized I was getting off the track, it was all a downhill from then on. Shit just piled on.

Now that I have finished my college, I know it’s pointless to blabber about my failures in my blog. But I can’t admit to all these things to my parents or anyone(not while I’m sober at least 😀 ). I have to do it somewhere, right?! And I’m not Catholic so that I can go to Church one day and tell the priest that I’ve fucked my life up! Well, pleas bare with my few followers and friends here.. I’m just a clueless child trapped in a 22 year old body!

God, I wish things would fall into its place. Degree has become enough of a challenge for me now. Besides,after all this; I still have to find a job, a place to live may be. Life is getting pretty serious from now on. Serious in the sense, I can never shy away from responsibility for I have thrived on the same thing for my entire life. I just wish I get through all this stuff;bruised, I can take but definitely not dead.

Let there be peace.. \/

_Aj