Poetry : Lost and Found

It’s been a while, I know. Well, with nothing really happening in my life; the whole point of coming out here and scribbling something has become a little less appealing to me these days. Or you could just say that I’ve been lazy. Either works fine with me.

So, life has been pretty much the same for the past one and a half years now. Boring, Dull, whatever words you can find to describe it doesn’t do justice to the feeling. Any ways, the whole reason I’ve decided to come out here is because, today I switched on my old phone and found a piece of poetry I’ve written about 3 years ago. I don’t know if I had posted it here already, but I just found it too good to be left alone in the dusty corners of my old phone’s memory. I know, I’m boasting about my own skills here, but the person who wrote it 3 years ago and the person who is struggling to write something nowadays have a lot less in common; that much I can assure you. All these years, I’ve been trying to rediscover that spark I’ve lost a long time ago. I feel that I need a creative push more than anything at the moment. Well, who knows what might be of help. So here it goes. Hopefully, you’ll find this good too.

” I move with limped legs,

and a broken heart

waiting for the final whistle to blow..

the end of a lost game.

Walk away with little left of what 

can be called as pride. 

Yesterdays starting to become 

long lost memories, 

Hard earned virtues of the past turning into 

nothing but the trash of today. 

I gasp for breath in this alien world..

few things that kept me alive becoming pricey 

each passing day..

I’m left with no choice but to live

till the ultimate escape..

to swim a few worthless miles 

before drowning deep.

to make some noise before 

the eternal silence. 

I lie here waiting to be dead..” 

This  was perhaps the time when my first infatuation kinda died on itself. That’s why the whole macabre kinda mood to it. Any ways, I’ve never had such an inspiration to scribble something like this in a long time, I figured I might just post something I’ve written a long time ago. Looking back, all of it seems so silly. But it definitely fuelled my creative pursuits and that in itself is a positive thing I guess. As someone once said, adversity brings the best out of us in ways we can never imagine( if no body had said it before, let’s just say, I said it now! 😀  ).

Let there be peace! 

Another year of new hopes..

So
another year begins. 2012 ends with a lot of memories. Pain,loss,happiness,peace, all of those emotions you’ve experienced in a year. I know that it’s been almost three weeks into the New Year, but as I’m always;later than never.

I’ve lost grip on writing skills(not to be modest,but i used to be much more confident and better at this). Years have passed on. I’m 22 moving onto 23,and rather strangely enough my hairs have started to grey prematurely 😀 .

Life has changed a lot in the past 5 years. My earlier posts would have had me complaining about how unfair my college was to me. And my recent posts would’ve shown that I have finally started liking college. So as I type this down, I’m an 8th semester Engineering student preparing my final year project and hanging back to my college as much as I could.

By hanging back, the only thing i intend to say is the memories,friendship and all those nice things that one could have experienced in his/her college life. Not to mention those boring lectures! 😀

Also, on a more serious note, I think of this as the real turning point in my life. My life has had a routine for the past several years. It was either going to school or going to college in the morning. This used to be daily routine in my life. I’ve been a student my whole life and I mean it in the literal sense. To see all of that changing at some point would be like a life changing moment in our ordinary lives. New challenges,getting a job,starting a career; all those serious questions begin to loom in the vicinity. Not to mention the back-papers I’ve ‘earned’ meanwhile in college. A lot of things adding up in the responsibility sack.

This is not a typical ‘new-year’s-resolution’ kinda post, but sort of a self-reminder of my situation. I mean, I think about it most of the times, but to scribble it somewhere makes me partly relieved. Not that I don’t have any friends to share this,but something’s need to be said to our selves,to the man in the mirror.

As 2013 begins, my college life is on its twilight. I have not yet decided on pursuing Post Graduation, but certainly my best years in life are coming to an end. Oh yes, I’ll still have my best friends,my buddies and everything nice about college and life; but somehow things won’t ever be the same. Change is the only thing that never changes,as the wise say. I just hope that as the year unfolds, the changes in life are for the greater good…