This week,our college was shut down owing to the strike’s going on in Tamil Nadu state. So that gave us a week to sit idle at home.Well as it seems now,free time can give you a lot to think about..
All along the past four years, I’ve only had bitter experience with my college life. The whole scenario changed in the past few months. I’m actually starting to like my college and when that’s happening,it seems my days have been numbered at my college! 😦
For most of the my tenure at NIT(Erstwhile JIT,my college), I’ve always had one thing or another to complain about. But as I have just said,the past few months or rather the past year has brought a lot of changes in me and my perception about my college.
I know that I’m gonna miss my college days(if not my college!). My friends,the best time’s I’ve had there and of course the worst times. For I now realize that I will never ever be having a second chance at doing these things over again. It’s a one-off shot and I think I tried my best. I may or may not regret in the future about the things I could’ve done in my youth,but for the time being; i know I’ll miss those days..
Even though, I’ve had so many bitter experiences to start with; I think, I’m a better person at handling and understanding people than I was 4 years ago,when I joined my college. I now know the difference between hay and seed. Friendships, both good and bad,had been the mainstay of my college life. And thankfully, its the good that will always be with me throughout my life.
As I’ve said in the beginning, this whole week is off for me and that really made me think about my future. The impending reality. The harsher side of things. All I have done this time is simply sit at home and lavishly spend my time. Just wasting my time. It’s not the same feeling I had when I had a long vacation after my school life came to an end 4 years ago. That was regret. Regret,that I could not have utilized my time well back then. To go on tours,do crazy stuff etc. Like all regular teenagers. But that feeling has been replaced now with worry. Worry that what will I be doing when I’m done with my course in the coming 3 or so months. I’ll be having a lot of time,yes. But time to face life- to step out of my comfort zone and make a stand for myself. All my life I’ve been spoon-fed to disastrous levels that I’m doubting myself whether I’ll survive out there in the real scene. I trust my instincts,my skills,my determination-yet I’m doubtful of my performance. Since life turns serious from now on, I miss all those things I value the most. Friendship,love and all those good things. Since college life is coming to an end,most of us won’t be seeing each other regularly like we see everyday in class. Who knows; some of us won’t be seeing each other for years to come! I’m too sensitive to imagine of such a scenario, for I can’t bear the sheer pain of having been unable to away from my dear ones. I may have my own share of defects and faults, but if there was anything I was good at; I’d say I always knew how to keep my loved ones with me by spending the only thing I ever had with me,love.
As of now, no one can guarantee where we’ll all reach within a few years. Journey of life might take us to the extremes, but all I hope is that my loved one’s are never far away in heart miles. Close to heart even if we’re miles apart.
Well, the spare time had given me a lot to think about. And thoughts are concerning. As the wise have said before, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. I’m praying that I have the toughness and strength in me to take me through the opening’s in life. I’m praying that people whom I care for are never missed and are always close to our hearts,always. I’m praying, for that’s the only thing I can do right now..
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